Chapter 5, a surge of emotion

When Zhuo Yifan opened the door and saw me, his eyes lit up with a peculiar expression, and then he uttered the three words 'Yan Chunchun'

Mr. Qian looked at me with rolling eyes and said with a smile, "Don't worry, you won't have anything to do with this in the future. It's a common occurrence for me to break up with girls."

I feel that I must write well about that girl in my notebook, filling it with blessings. I hope she can live happily in the future. If she is happy, I will also be at ease.

Little did anyone know, she proudly said: "In progress smoothly"

Before long, Fu Qing was seen walking over with a man

Zhuo Yifan said: "Do not let yourself be like Yan Chunchun, you have your own style"

Since Cao Ge arrived, General Manager Qian has stepped back to a secondary role, primarily responsible for administrative tasks. As a result, General Manager Qian is happy because he can stick behind me all day and monitor me

Li Xue went to Tibet, Fu Qing went to check on Xiao Ye's matter, and in the clinic, only General Qian and Cao Ge were left with me

I suddenly understood myself, understood why I dress this way; isn't this simply imitating Yan Chunchun?

Li Xue seemed not to hear me speaking, staring blankly and ignoring me

But what does this have to do with anything? I am not actually the woman of Mr. Qian.

This girl still hasn't forgotten Yuan Ye, even after the way he treated her last time, she still had the audacity to seek him out, I am too embarrassed to say anything to her

Next, investigate why Xiao Ye committed suicide. Zheng Sheng must have been deeply affected by his wife's suicide, but if it were a common situation, it shouldn't have led to this.

Sometimes when I go to see Zhuo Yifan, he is running on the treadmill, and I just sit beside him watching. The sweat on the tip of Zhuo Yifan's nose and the large sweat stain on his tank top make me feel very attracted to him. Sitting next to him, I can occasionally smell the scent that emanates from Zhuo Yifan as he sweats; I like that scent, it is Zhuo Yifan's scent, the scent of a man.

Yuan Ye was left speechless for a long time by a single sentence and hung up the phone in great frustration

I truly did not expect that Li Xue had such deep feelings for that man. Seeing her usually joking with Fu Qing about how men are, I thought she at least had a clear mind when leaving that man. Although I believe she loves him, the reality is indeed much harsher than I imagined; I did not expect her to love him so deeply.

I originally intended to ask Zhuo Yifan to accompany me to Mr. Qian's house, but after some thought, I ultimately decided not to say anything

When the payment was settled, I proudly leaned my head on that man's shoulder and said: "I just found a lost handsome guy, what do you think?"

My heart often tells me that this man is too much to my liking

Fu Qing looked at me and Zhou Yang with confusion. Just as he was about to ask what was going on, I waved my hand and called for Fu Qing to go upstairs

The serious demeanor did not seem like a joke, and I asked in confusion why one would commit suicide

Upon hearing this, Li Xue let out a sharp scream, threw the food onto the table, and repeatedly asked, "Did I eat it? Did I eat it?"

I quickly got up and said that since guests had arrived, I would take my leave first

Little did anyone know, Li Xue suddenly cried out loud, shouting in despair, what should I do, what should I do

Li Xue looked at Fu Qing and said, "So what should we do now?"

I nodded vigorously

Mr. Qian looked at Zhou Yang with a strange expression. Mr. Qian knew Zhou Yang; the first time I met Zhou Yang, both Mr. Qian and Zhuo Yifan were present.

However, at this moment, I cannot manage her; I can barely manage myself.

I recalled the story that Zheng Sheng mentioned, the one about him eloping with Xiao Ye. Regardless of the name of love under which they left, in the end, they could never return. Xiao Ye would rather choose to die than go back.

I could not clearly see whether Zhou Yang's expression had changed; in the darkness, it was all a blur. However, upon hearing his laughter, I knew that the coldness he had earlier was gone. Sound is a peculiar thing; it too has expressions and emotions, conveying many messages that you wish to capture

For the first time in my life, I felt a sense of unease. Even in front of Zhuo Yifan, I had never experienced such feelings. No matter how Zhuo Yifan made me anxious, I always clearly understood my own state of mind, knew what I wanted to do, and what I wanted to say. However, at this moment, I felt somewhat flustered and could not articulate the reason.

This matter lingered in her mind until it was settled the next day. While everyone was having lunch, she suddenly looked up and said: "If it's lost, then it's lost; as long as it wasn't that old man who found it, that's all that matters"

This is a good time, a good time to leave

Mr. Qian slammed the table and whistled while attending to other matters

While finishing the popcorn, he told me about Xiao Ye's situation

Regarding that ring, I simply told Fu Qing: "I lost it."

This statement is indeed true

Look at that face, it clearly shows that things are not going well! Truly disappointing. If it really comes to it, just take care of that child directly. Haven't you always been confident in your own charm?

Mr. Qian's father said: "Regarding the psychological training for the company's employees, I would like to invite Dr. Zhou to give us a few lessons." After speaking, he led Zhou Yang to another room

"Did I say that I was unclear? Why are you so agitated?" Zhou Yang's tone was filled with amusement

I believe in this, so I promised Zhuo Yifan

I did not dare to respond to her. If I were to tell her that it was that old man who found it, I wonder if she would be heartbroken. In fact, it wouldn't matter if she were heartbroken; the problem is whether she would consider taking a knife to deal with me.

I do not wish to continue the lengthy conversation with her; I will sit down and ask her about Xiao Ye.

I stood alone in place for a long time, always feeling a sense of unease that I could not shake off

"Aren't you two already broken up?" Fu Qingqi asked strangely

I am somewhat taken aback; this is the first time that Zhuo Yifan has actively invited me

Lost ?

What do you want me to do? I asked

Originally, Xiao Ye's real name is Zheng Sheng, and Xiao Ye is the name of Zheng Sheng's wife. As for the real Xiao Ye, she committed suicide a year ago

So what do you want to say

Today, Yuan Ye called me again to go out for fun this weekend. This time, I have a legitimate reason; I am going to President Qian's birthday party. Yuan Ye sighed helplessly on the other end of the line and said, "I have made reservations, reservations for next week, the week after next, the week after that, and so on... Look, are you really that busy?"

I opened my mouth several times, but ultimately could not ask the question.

I often ask myself why I love this man so much

I sipped my coffee, pondering in circles in my mind, and I couldn't shake the feeling that I should go. It is Qian's birthday, and as a friend, I should attend; moreover, he has helped me so much, and as his superior, I ought to be there. With Li Xue absent and Fu Qing busy, I could only go by myself. However, I still tentatively asked one more question: "How about I bring Zhuo Yifan along?"

This is an unreasonable explanation, yet love is inherently unreasonable

Fu Qing snorted and went out, saying that he was going to find Yuan Ye to book a room and make some extra money

Fu Qing's argument is not without merit; this is indeed the most likely scenario. However, we cannot merely speculate. Now that we are aware of this matter, I am even more inclined to get to the bottom of it.

"It's really useless. If it were me, I would take care of it first and discuss feelings later"

After settling the payment, stand by and watch the show

"The heart of a petty person! Since I have helped you today and have already said what needed to be said, I will not hold a grudge."

"What about his wife... how should I say it?" Fu Qing still held onto a glimmer of hope as she asked this question. I pulled Fu Qing, signaling her not to ask anymore, and said: "Forget it, if it's paid off, then it's paid off. After all, what you, Li Xue, want is love, not a house. Even if that man has broken up with you now, the house no longer belongs to you. At least you have experienced love. You should rely on that love to eat, sleep, and live your life! It's not a big deal. Since you can give up the house, there's no need to cry here."

I did not return it to him; I returned it to his wife

I found myself thinking quite far ahead, and in the end, the issue unexpectedly shifted from Mr. Qian's original girlfriend to myself.

However, I still have not found where my life is. Is it in that clinic? In Zhuo Yifan's depression? Or in the hands of the yet-to-appear destined partner? I have never admitted that I need a man, but I realize that I need love. Life is just that terrible

At that moment, I was so shocked that my face turned green, and I stood there with my mouth agape, unable to speak for a long time. Finally, I managed to say: "You, Cold Beauty, are the biggest fool and spendthrift in the entire world and universe!"

Mr. Qian maintained a composed expression and said with a smile, "That would be even better! Welcome, welcome!"

Regarding Yan Chunchun, I have not mentioned her to Zhuo Yifan again, and I am even afraid that Zhuo Yifan will bring up the three characters "Yan Chunchun" to me.

I would like to discuss the situation regarding Zhuo Yifan! I am eager to clarify and distinguish some things that seem both vague and clear.

Upon arriving at Mr. Qian's home, I was taken aback; it was not a gathering at all. Including myself, there were only four people in total. What made me break out in a cold sweat was that the other three were Mr. Qian and his parents

At that moment, a guest entered; the person who came in stared at me as soon as they walked through the door, their face filled with suspicion

"Have you... made any compensation to the person?" I asked cautiously

I hung up the phone and smiled at Mr. Qian, saying, "Alright, I will go."

This time it is real, because this time he said he wants to break up with me. In the past, it was always me throwing a tantrum and saying I wanted to break up, and he never agreed. But this time he wants to break up with me, and we haven't spoken on the phone for a week. " Li Xue said the last sentence with a face full of grievance, and then she started to cry softly.

"I feel relieved." Li Xue continued to sob, though no tears fell.

At that moment, my phone rang; it was a call from Yuan Ye

Paying off with a secret smile, said: "It's nothing, research shows that rat droppings have high nutritional value, so you don't need to eat pork this week."

"It's nothing much, just asking how I am. We chatted casually for a bit. I realized that I could speak to her very calmly on the phone." Zhuo Yifan poured me a glass of water and then sat across from me, looking very much like a man of stature.

Li Xue looked up at me and after a long pause, said three words: "I have money"

However, Zhuo Yifan insists on bringing it up

Li Xue once said that I live somewhat like a man

So I changed the subject and asked Fu Qing: "How is the investigation into that Xiao Ye matter going?"

Upon seeing Li Xue, Fu Qing immediately put down the dishes and admitted his mistake, saying that we had deceived her and were just trying to make her happy

The events of that day were somewhat chaotic, to the extent that I later found it difficult to recount them clearly to Qing and Li Xue. The relationships among the characters involved in this incident appeared particularly complex: Zhou Yang and Yan Chunchun, Zhou Yang and me, I and Zhuo Yifan, Zhuo Yifan and Yan Chunchun, as well as Fu Qing's former fat man, and even that ring.

I was bending over, laughing uncontrollably downstairs at Mr. Qian's house, to the point where tears were about to come out of my eyes

That weekend, on the evening before Mr. Qian's birthday, before I had gone to Zhuo Yifan's place, Zhuo Yifan suddenly called me and asked me to come over

Mr. Qian cautiously tugged at me and said, "Keep your voice down, the sound insulation here is average, and my parents have probably already heard your earth-shattering laughter at home."

When I angrily got out of the car, I heard Mr. Qian's very aggrieved words: "Who am I doing this for?"

Several times, I opened my mouth to ask Mr. Qian what his girlfriend, with whom he has been in a relationship for eight years, is called, what she does, and where she lives, but each time I was thwarted by the coffee in my cup, and ultimately, I still did not ask.

In the eyes of a lover, one sees Xi Shi, perhaps it is just like this

I originally had no intention of paying attention to her, so I left her aside and ignored her, saying that I did not want to know tonight

Fu Qing stared at Li Xue for a long time and said, "Isn't the so-called 'pear blossoms drenched in rain' just her appearance right now?"

Sometimes I am mesmerized; after finishing the race, Zhuo Yifan smiles at me and then takes a bottle of mineral water, tilting his head back to drink it in one go. This series of images brings me a sense of happiness

But if there is hope, why not give it a try? What if you regret it later?

When I got home, I found Jing sitting there with a large bag of popcorn, watching television. It was obvious that she hadn't managed to meet Yuan Ye. I didn't have the heart to tease her, mainly because I wasn't in the mood to do so.

Mr. Qian is giving me reassurance, telling me not to worry. In the future, if it is discovered that we are not together, he will say that he has dumped me

Fortunately, I dressed up according to the standards of the gathering; otherwise, Qian Zong's wealthy and generous mother would surely have looked at me with disdain

The person who came in is Zhou Yang

Every time I say I am too busy to go, Yuan Ye laughs while scolding me. He says I am a typical black-hearted villain who destroys the bridge after crossing it, hides the bow after shooting the rabbit, and cooks the dog after the hunt. I just smile and praise his literary cultivation as truly remarkable, and then this matter passes.

After observing for such a long time, I finally encountered someone to see him. The person who came to see him looked like a migrant worker. I bought him many daily necessities and then informed me about the matters concerning Zheng Sheng and Xiao Ye

I spat at her and refused to engage with her

I calmly said: "What I see is half a mouse droppings"

But I have already returned it

At that time, I did not pay attention; it was only after a long while that I remembered, was I not just a woman?

My name is Fu Qing, stop keeping me in suspense and speak quickly

I smiled helplessly, continuously spinning the cup in front of me, then looked up and said loudly to Zhuo Yifan: "I see that your condition has not only not improved, but has a tendency to worsen, actually indulging in delusions here! Just because Yan Chunchun didn't answer your call, you lost your way; the phone is wireless and cannot bridge the gap between you and Yan Chunchun!"

I am not doing this to help Mr. Qian, but rather because I do not want to lose face in front of Mr. Qian's mother. I assume that if this were truly a meeting between parents, the outcome should be that I did not find them suitable, rather than them not finding me suitable.

You may go back first

I looked at Mr. Qian in silence and said, "Then you shouldn't deceive me. Why not just tell me directly what the matter is? Why resort to underhanded tactics? What if I had lost my temper and caused a scene as soon as I entered your house? That would have been a joke, wouldn't it?"

I ultimately went to that so-called gathering at Mr. Qian's alone. I know that Mr. Qian lacks for nothing, so I casually bought a watch, intending it to serve as Mr. Qian's birthday gift

"What are you looking at? I have to accompany Zhuo Yifan this weekend, and you know that very well." I replied coldly

Qian Zong curiously asked Zhou Yang: "Do you have business dealings with my father?"

Paying in full shook his head and said he did not know

Is that all

He said that to me, but I don't care. After being with him for so long, when have I ever cared about those things? Why is it that we have to part ways now? Why didn't he say it earlier?" Li Xue spoke with a look of complete grievance.

Mr. Qian's mother politely urged me to stay for a moment, and then she asked Mr. Qian to see me off.

Mr. Qian's mother kept talking to me, recounting stories about Mr. Qian from his childhood while inquiring about my family and personal circumstances. Each time she asked, Mr. Qian would say, "We agreed not to ask this time!" Then she would laugh and say, "Right, right, not asking." However, after a while, she would still bring up these questions, prompting Mr. Qian to express his dissatisfaction by saying, "Why is this coming up again?"

"Oh, oh, one cannot speak like that!" Fu Qing, who was standing nearby, expressed his discontent.

Although I was very happy to see Zhuo Yifan so joyful that day, I did feel a bit like I was fleeing in a hurry when I left

Zhou Yang suddenly let out a cold laugh and said, "No wonder I saw you at Mr. Qian's house."

This evening is actually nothing special, still somewhat warm, still with mosquitoes searching for blood-filled beings in the darkness, still unable to see the moonlight. Yet everything is as clear as my heartbeat

I bought Zhuo Yifan a treadmill and a sandbag, as exercise is a good way to relieve stress and vent emotions. I am doing everything I can for Zhuo Yifan.

When the doorbell rang, Mr. Qian's father said: "It might be the guest I invited, regarding company matters"

Perhaps he does not want to delay you any longer. He knows very well that he cannot provide you with a home, so he wants to let you go. This is for your own good. Why must you feel sad? I tried to console Li Xue with this seemingly unrealistic yet comforting reasoning.

"Li Xue, there is mouse droppings in the rice," I said loudly

Fu Qing vigorously shook his wrist and said: "Look here, don't bring popcorn into this! How can one say that men are creatures who think with their lower bodies? What emotion is deeper, truer, and more real than the feelings that arise in bed?"

Love possesses a magical quality; it has the power to heal the ailments of other emotions within you

What else do you have to say? Just say it all at once, don't beat around the bush! Even Mr. Qian can see that I have something to say.

If you dare to do such reckless things to me again next time, do you believe I will truly sever all ties with you? As soon as I regained my composure, I spoke to Mr. Qian with my eyes wide open, without taking a breath.

Then let's do it another day, I have other matters to attend to, so I won't see you off. After saying this, I turned around and ran upstairs

"You should go out and have some fun for a few days, clear your mind! If you don't have money, I can lend you some!" I said to Li Xue, unable to bear it any longer.

However, the meal was still enjoyed greatly, as Qian Zong's mother shared some truly amusing stories about his childhood. She recounted that when Qian Zong was in kindergarten, he had a crush on a girl, and he would throw a tantrum at home refusing to go to school unless he could sit next to her. In the end, he did get to sit next to the girl, but later he refused to go to kindergarten again, as he discovered that the girl liked to pick her nose, and he cried out, insisting that he did not want to sit next to her.

I have thought carefully about Xiao Ye's situation. Although I do not know the exact reason for his behavior, one thing is certain: he must have experienced some form of setback

I do not believe that mouse droppings could make Li Xue cry like this. By the end, Li Xue was almost crying to the point of losing all sense of her surroundings, making it difficult for Fu Qing and me to swallow our food. If Li Xue had simply shed a few tears, I might have felt a twinge of guilt, thinking that I should not have treated her this way. However, since her crying was so exaggerated, I felt at ease; the person who upset her could not possibly be me.

People will always go through some choices that they can never return from. For example, Qian Zong, he may not be able to go back either

Indeed, the handsome guy I met is Zhou Yang

Zhou Yang ignored me and politely greeted Mr. Qian's parents and Mr. Qian.

In the end, I steeled my heart and went just like that

However, I still feel unconvinced, saying: "A bag of popcorn has bought you off, and you are worth just this much!"

After finishing the meal, I felt a bit embarrassed to leave in a hurry, so I sat for a while at Mr. Qian's home

I hurriedly tidied myself up at home, aiming to reach a state where Zhuo Yifan would not be able to tell that I had meticulously prepared, yet I appeared exceptionally beautiful and enchanting, with a subtle allure.

The longer I spend time with Zhuo Yifan, the more I find myself infatuated with him. This feeling is quite strange, unlike anything I have experienced before. In the past, I would always end up disliking a man after spending too much time with him, regardless of how much I admired him initially. Over time, I would inevitably notice some flaws or peculiarities in him that I could not accept, and thus I would keep my distance from that man.

So foolish! After hearing these few words from Zhuo Yifan, the only two words in my mind are: this person is truly foolish

I fell silent and helplessly urged Mr. Qian to hurry and take me back

As soon as I heard it, I understood. This kid is probably being pressured by his family to get married, and they must have introduced him to several well-mannered young ladies, but none of them suit his taste. However, he can't use me as a shield, can he? If that's the case, won't his parents come to me to seek an explanation later?

I felt quite uneasy when I heard him say he would repay me, but I still smiled and said that I would have to charge interest, a very high interest.

Fu Qing pondered and said, "Could it be that Zheng Sheng has had an affair? Moreover, the one who is interested in Zheng Sheng is a wealthy woman; otherwise, how could Zheng Sheng afford such a large house to live in?"

Qian was taken aback, clearly startled by the stark contrast in my demeanor. After a considerable pause, he smiled and said, "Didn’t I say I would help? It’s truly just a favor. You have no idea, the girls my mom introduced to me are all unreliable; she has no clue what kind of girl her son actually likes. The reason I invited you to meet them is twofold: first, to put an end to her absurd notions, and second, so that when I eventually want to find a wife, she will have a reference point. I want to use you as a model, so she can bring me a bunch of similar ones to choose from at my leisure"

However, she actually has the mood to belittle me

Mr. Qian's father appears to be very easygoing, yet he remains silent, only speaking once in a long while, and that is often trivial. I suspect that this old man may have become overly cautious due to Mr. Qian's substantial wealth, harboring a sense of wariness towards everyone, fearing that misfortune may arise from his words. As a result, he tends to ponder over matters in a convoluted manner before finally expressing them.

Zhuo Yifan was too direct, and I suddenly found myself at a loss for words.

When Mr. Qian is at home, he remains calm and composed; however, once he steps out of the house, he is no longer the same, displaying a look of sincere trepidation, as if fearing that I might consume him

That night after I returned, Fu Qing stared at me for a long time and said to me, "Do you know? You look especially like a woman today"

I reached out to feel around my body, hoping to find a cigarette or two, only to remember that I was dressed in a rather stylish dress that had no pockets, let alone any cigarettes

What is the matter?

Hello! Are you going to continue standing here talking, or are you going upstairs? Aren't you afraid of being bitten by mosquitoes?" Fu Qing, watching from the side, felt that there was nothing interesting to see and said a word.

Who else is there? Are you not aware of the wrongdoings you have committed? A good girl has been ruined beyond recognition because of you, and you still ask who else? You say you don't want that girl, but how can you also abandon your own flesh and blood?

I restrained myself a little, but I still couldn't stop laughing, and so I wobbled onto Mr. Qian's car.

Just a moment, it won't take much of your time

Since the last time Zhuo Yifan saw Yan Chunchun, he has become less talkative. The emotional foundation I painstakingly built has suddenly turned to ashes, yet I still go to see Zhuo Yifan at least once every day